A lot has happened in the past year…
May 30, 2011
Apologies for the radio silence. I found myself a good group of friends, and suddenly pouring my heart out on the internet wasn’t as necessary any more.
But it’s 3.30am in the morning and my friends are asleep and I’m still trying to untangle what happened last night.
I’ve been going out with a guy. One of the first things I told him was my history. I told him I would understand if he couldn’t deal with. He said he could. Wrong there.
He said it was like a third partner in our relationship. He said he couldn’t be responsible for keeping me sane. He said that it was always there, that it never went away.
I’m angry. I’m angry that he can’t deal with the things I had to go through. I am angry that once again my step-father is reaching out from my childhood to damage my life. I’m angry that my now ex-boyfriend sees me as damaged, and irreparably so. I’m angry that it took four months for him to say so, and even then it was only after I brought it up.
How long do I have to pay for what my step-father did to me?
